Pardon me for baring my soul, but I don't want this blog to be only pictures and high points. I want to remember it all, the good, the great, the bad and the ugly.
Tonight, I'm overwhelmed.
My livingroom looks like my washing machine/dryer threw up. Literally. They are doing work on the outside of my house causing me to need to be home but not able to let the kids outside to run off energy. They were WILD today. I have a newborn. Who likes to nurse. And snuggle. I have a 3 yr old. Who misses being the baby. I have a 6 yr old. Who also just wants mommy's attention. And dishes. And laundry. And bathrooms. And toys. And dinner. And lunch. And snacks. And obligations. And family.
I'm not going to lie. Today was hard. I've cried. I've wanted to scream though I've held myself together. I've cried some more. I've thought about all the things I'd like to say in anger (thankfully I held them all in because they were pointless, just me getting out my frustration). I'm exhausted. They've shown up at my house all week by 7:30, beating and pounding on the outside framework replacing boards and painting. The kids are getting up early but still not wanting to go to bed, and I end up staying up to get work done at night because I can't get anything done during the day. I'm sure that this doesn't help my frustration. In fact I know it doesn't. I get grumpy when I get tired. It's just me.
In the end, I know tomorrow is a new day. Please Lord just let it be better than today.
Oh how I remember those days... it's when I picked up the quote "The days are long but the years are short!"
ReplyDeletePraying you through -- no need to apologize or justify, we know how truly tough and challenging motherhood can be, especially as the kids are young! The challenges are relentless. Praying for His new mercies in the morning!
Hi friend, like J.D, "I am praying you through."
ReplyDeleteHang in there! If I were there in Alabama, I would come over and help.
xo, and i love you.