Monday, April 25, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Admitting it is hard for me.
I've almost deleted that last post countless amounts of time. Why? Because I hate being vulnerable. I hate others knowing my weaknesses. I hate sharing that side of my life. But it's real. It's me. I don't know why I have a desire to hide those parts of my life. I guess I've been burned before when laying my heart out there so I don't want to chance it again? Or is it because showing that side of me means I'm weak?
And just so I don't forget this one day... Today, the workers who have been painting the outside of the house, broke the AC again. When I went outside to fix it, I left asher asleep in my room, and the other two having a snack in the living room. When I returned a few moments later. I found Elijah trying to shove an entire oatmeal creme pie into Asher's mouth. Such love, he has for his brother, that he wanted to share his snack. LOL
And just so I don't forget this one day... Today, the workers who have been painting the outside of the house, broke the AC again. When I went outside to fix it, I left asher asleep in my room, and the other two having a snack in the living room. When I returned a few moments later. I found Elijah trying to shove an entire oatmeal creme pie into Asher's mouth. Such love, he has for his brother, that he wanted to share his snack. LOL
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
overwhelmed.
Pardon me for baring my soul, but I don't want this blog to be only pictures and high points. I want to remember it all, the good, the great, the bad and the ugly.
Tonight, I'm overwhelmed.
My livingroom looks like my washing machine/dryer threw up. Literally. They are doing work on the outside of my house causing me to need to be home but not able to let the kids outside to run off energy. They were WILD today. I have a newborn. Who likes to nurse. And snuggle. I have a 3 yr old. Who misses being the baby. I have a 6 yr old. Who also just wants mommy's attention. And dishes. And laundry. And bathrooms. And toys. And dinner. And lunch. And snacks. And obligations. And family.
I'm not going to lie. Today was hard. I've cried. I've wanted to scream though I've held myself together. I've cried some more. I've thought about all the things I'd like to say in anger (thankfully I held them all in because they were pointless, just me getting out my frustration). I'm exhausted. They've shown up at my house all week by 7:30, beating and pounding on the outside framework replacing boards and painting. The kids are getting up early but still not wanting to go to bed, and I end up staying up to get work done at night because I can't get anything done during the day. I'm sure that this doesn't help my frustration. In fact I know it doesn't. I get grumpy when I get tired. It's just me.
In the end, I know tomorrow is a new day. Please Lord just let it be better than today.
Tonight, I'm overwhelmed.
My livingroom looks like my washing machine/dryer threw up. Literally. They are doing work on the outside of my house causing me to need to be home but not able to let the kids outside to run off energy. They were WILD today. I have a newborn. Who likes to nurse. And snuggle. I have a 3 yr old. Who misses being the baby. I have a 6 yr old. Who also just wants mommy's attention. And dishes. And laundry. And bathrooms. And toys. And dinner. And lunch. And snacks. And obligations. And family.
I'm not going to lie. Today was hard. I've cried. I've wanted to scream though I've held myself together. I've cried some more. I've thought about all the things I'd like to say in anger (thankfully I held them all in because they were pointless, just me getting out my frustration). I'm exhausted. They've shown up at my house all week by 7:30, beating and pounding on the outside framework replacing boards and painting. The kids are getting up early but still not wanting to go to bed, and I end up staying up to get work done at night because I can't get anything done during the day. I'm sure that this doesn't help my frustration. In fact I know it doesn't. I get grumpy when I get tired. It's just me.
In the end, I know tomorrow is a new day. Please Lord just let it be better than today.
Monday, April 18, 2011
One month stats!
Asher had another pedi appt this morning and I wanted to record his stats :)
Weight 8lb 15oz (he was down to 8lb 4oz) (25%)
Height 22 in. (75%)
Head circumf. 15 (50%)
Thursday, April 14, 2011
28 days later
28 days ago I gave birth.
28 days ago I found out how amazing my body really is.
28 days ago we learned that 'Kinsley' was really 'Asher' (and we are so in love)
28 days ago Elijah became a big brother for the first time.
28 days ago Kyley became a big sister again.
28 days ago I was at home surrounded by my sweet family and friends.
28 days ag our lives changed forever
28 days ago I found out how amazing my body really is.
28 days ago we learned that 'Kinsley' was really 'Asher' (and we are so in love)
28 days ago Elijah became a big brother for the first time.
28 days ago Kyley became a big sister again.
28 days ago I was at home surrounded by my sweet family and friends.
28 days ag our lives changed forever
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Thursday, April 7, 2011
3 years...
My first little man turned 3 on Sunday.
As a mother it's hard, (hello captain obvious!) yet so rewarding watching your children grow up.
I'm reminded so much of how short life is, and how precious it is.
(pardon the heaviness here, but it's my heart)
For the past three years, I've followed two amazing women (their blogs). They probably have no idea who I am, yet they have touched my life in a way I cannot describe. Angie and Raechel have something in common with me, yet their stories are so much different. I've been reading their blogs since their little girls (Audrey and Evie, respectively) were born into this world pretty much, about the same time my little Elijah was born. I remember how I felt the day Elijah was born. I should've been elated, and happy and excited, and I was to some extent, but deeper within I was bitter, withdrawn and cold. Not only that, I was mad. I was mad at God, at my circumstances, my life in general. If you know my story, you probably know why. If you don't know my story, perhaps some day I'll share it in it's fullness here, but that is not for now. Long story short, I was mad at God, because I was blind. I couldn't see my baby when he was born. I was devastated, hurt, and downright angry. Was it justified? Maybe. But life is so much more than that. These beautiful ladies showed me what grace looks like in hard times. I felt like nothing was going my way, like the world was stacked against me, and here these beautiful women were, giving birth to their sweet girls, only to say goodbye until eternity. Ouch. How's that for a dose of reality to a new mother who is sulking in her own emotions. So, every year I celebrate Elijah's life, with a heavy heart for these sweet women, yet rejoicing for the grace God taught me through them.
I'm so proud of who Elijah is becoming. He has a passion to love. And he has a passion for Jesus. I love to listen to him pray, and sing songs he's learned at church, or even ask to say the books of the Bible (they are learning them in children's church so we say them and let him repeat and he's remembering!) Just this week Derek and I were talking about a few things we love about this age. I personally love the way he'll jump out of the doorway into whatever room you're in and yell "kerprise mommy!" (surprise) Derek shared with me how much he loves that Elijah doesn't just jump, he jumps and exclaims "bounce, bounce" anytime he's doing so. He is so full of fun and energy, and yet so sweet and gentle when he needs to be and I adore that. He is in love with his big sister, and with his baby brother and I couldn't ask for a sweeter 3 year old to call my own.
As a mother it's hard, (hello captain obvious!) yet so rewarding watching your children grow up.
I'm reminded so much of how short life is, and how precious it is.
(pardon the heaviness here, but it's my heart)
For the past three years, I've followed two amazing women (their blogs). They probably have no idea who I am, yet they have touched my life in a way I cannot describe. Angie and Raechel have something in common with me, yet their stories are so much different. I've been reading their blogs since their little girls (Audrey and Evie, respectively) were born into this world pretty much, about the same time my little Elijah was born. I remember how I felt the day Elijah was born. I should've been elated, and happy and excited, and I was to some extent, but deeper within I was bitter, withdrawn and cold. Not only that, I was mad. I was mad at God, at my circumstances, my life in general. If you know my story, you probably know why. If you don't know my story, perhaps some day I'll share it in it's fullness here, but that is not for now. Long story short, I was mad at God, because I was blind. I couldn't see my baby when he was born. I was devastated, hurt, and downright angry. Was it justified? Maybe. But life is so much more than that. These beautiful ladies showed me what grace looks like in hard times. I felt like nothing was going my way, like the world was stacked against me, and here these beautiful women were, giving birth to their sweet girls, only to say goodbye until eternity. Ouch. How's that for a dose of reality to a new mother who is sulking in her own emotions. So, every year I celebrate Elijah's life, with a heavy heart for these sweet women, yet rejoicing for the grace God taught me through them.
I'm so proud of who Elijah is becoming. He has a passion to love. And he has a passion for Jesus. I love to listen to him pray, and sing songs he's learned at church, or even ask to say the books of the Bible (they are learning them in children's church so we say them and let him repeat and he's remembering!) Just this week Derek and I were talking about a few things we love about this age. I personally love the way he'll jump out of the doorway into whatever room you're in and yell "kerprise mommy!" (surprise) Derek shared with me how much he loves that Elijah doesn't just jump, he jumps and exclaims "bounce, bounce" anytime he's doing so. He is so full of fun and energy, and yet so sweet and gentle when he needs to be and I adore that. He is in love with his big sister, and with his baby brother and I couldn't ask for a sweeter 3 year old to call my own.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
wide eyed
Asher has been so much fun. He is a great sleeper, a great nurser (even though i hurt a bit still!) and he has long periods of awake time that he just hangs out and it's so much fun! We are loving having a newborn around again!
coolest mom award
this would be Kyley's dinner tonight (ok and Elijah's but his isn't pictured here)
chocolate chip pancakes with chocolate syrup. I've never seen a kid so happy to eat dinner haha (we had eggs and hashbrowns too so it wasn't all "sweet")
Friday, March 18, 2011
introducing...
These aren't the best pictures, but there is now also an album on facebook with other pics as well.
Asher John Jordan was born yesterday morning (3-17) on St. Patrick's day at 245 am. He weighs 9 lbs and is 21 inches long. his head is 14 3/4 diameter (yikes!) I'll post the full story later, but wanted to at least give you guys a few details
Asher John Jordan was born yesterday morning (3-17) on St. Patrick's day at 245 am. He weighs 9 lbs and is 21 inches long. his head is 14 3/4 diameter (yikes!) I'll post the full story later, but wanted to at least give you guys a few details
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Snaggle Tooth
So, guess who lost their first tooth yesterday?
She was so stoked that we had a HARD time going to bed last night. She just didn't want to settle down and sleep because she was so excited and giddy. She can't stop smiling!
I snapped these right afterward last night of the two kids as well.
She was so stoked that we had a HARD time going to bed last night. She just didn't want to settle down and sleep because she was so excited and giddy. She can't stop smiling!
I snapped these right afterward last night of the two kids as well.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
yeah... so.... it's me....
Boy oh boy have I been bad at this blogging thing lately. 2 whole months went by without even a single post. 2 months to the day. HORRIBLE. Go ahead and throw your stones.
Truth is, I've just gotten busy and when I'm not busy I'm so tired I don't want to blog. *sigh* throw some more... I know.
So, who wants updates all around? :)
Elijah is about to be THREE! a month from today my sweet boy turns THREE! I can't believe it. We're still slowly working on the potty training. He's getting there, but still not ready to be full time in undies, though we try to do such at home. He is such a funny boy and stubborn at that. Some of my favorite phrases from him right now are if he wants something and I say no, he will reply "but yes it'll be fun!" or "it'll be awesome, mommy". Another favorite would be... "what's that noise?" Who knew my two year old could use the word noise CORRECTLY at any given time? I was sure surprised! He's also a little daredevil and will jump off of, and climb on anything.
Kyley, my sweet six yr old is sillier than ever. She loves and I mean LOVES to make her bubba giggle and laugh. They play for hours together, and it's so much fun to watch them make up funny games together. I'm so grateful that they are far enough apart that I didn't go crazy, but close enough in age they can play well together and be good friends. I'm having so much fun watching them grow up together. Kyley is THRILLED that a new baby will be joining our family soon (more on that later) and she cannot wait to be a big sister again and be a little "mommy" to her. She loves to kiss my belly and feel her move. She is now on the church puppet team and is loving it! We are working hard at learning to read (more on school as well) and she is almost finished with her 3rd year of dance! I cannot WAIT to take pictures of her in her sweet little costume this year. It is absolutely PERFECT for her!
As far as homeschooling goes, we are trucking on. This year has been an adjustment period to say the least. We've had some definite up times and some not so great times, but we're learning, and that's what matters most. I am currently researching and trying to decide where to go with curriculum for the first grade, but at the same time, still trying to figure out her style and what stimulates her most. Overall though, it's been a great year. We are still working hard on the learning to read part, but she is excelling beyond my expectations in math, so I believe she'll be a lot like her daddy in that area.
And the update I'm sure you're all dying to hear... no baby yet.
I'm due in 2 weeks and I'm starting to feel it. I've overall had a great pregnancy, not too many complaints. The last few days though, I've finally caught up with myself and I'm TIRED. If my house didn't need to be cleaned and things didn't need to be done, I'd lay around and watch tv with the kids all day. Alas, that is not the case. There is laundry to be folded, and dishes to be cleaned, and school work to be done. All in the name of being a mommy huh? :) I wouldn't trade it for the world.
We are super excited to meet our sweet little one, and cannot WAIT to see what God has in store for our family in the next few weeks. As for now, I'm enjoying every little kick, roll, and punch knowing this could be our last (though we're not sure on that) and trying to ignore the end of pregnancy fatigue.
Other than that, we've got a lot going on at church, gearing up for a super exciting VBS soon, and a lot of other fun stuff we're working on in children's church. If you haven't checked out the website for our ministry, you should do that. www.godsquadcm.com
Anyhow, so now that I've officially written a book, if you don't hear from me for a while, send me a message on FB or email me and yell at me for not blogging, I really need to get better about it, especially with having a new life to chronicle as well as the other two growing so quickly. And I promise to post as soon as I can when the babe is born, with pictures of course.
Truth is, I've just gotten busy and when I'm not busy I'm so tired I don't want to blog. *sigh* throw some more... I know.
So, who wants updates all around? :)
Elijah is about to be THREE! a month from today my sweet boy turns THREE! I can't believe it. We're still slowly working on the potty training. He's getting there, but still not ready to be full time in undies, though we try to do such at home. He is such a funny boy and stubborn at that. Some of my favorite phrases from him right now are if he wants something and I say no, he will reply "but yes it'll be fun!" or "it'll be awesome, mommy". Another favorite would be... "what's that noise?" Who knew my two year old could use the word noise CORRECTLY at any given time? I was sure surprised! He's also a little daredevil and will jump off of, and climb on anything.
Kyley, my sweet six yr old is sillier than ever. She loves and I mean LOVES to make her bubba giggle and laugh. They play for hours together, and it's so much fun to watch them make up funny games together. I'm so grateful that they are far enough apart that I didn't go crazy, but close enough in age they can play well together and be good friends. I'm having so much fun watching them grow up together. Kyley is THRILLED that a new baby will be joining our family soon (more on that later) and she cannot wait to be a big sister again and be a little "mommy" to her. She loves to kiss my belly and feel her move. She is now on the church puppet team and is loving it! We are working hard at learning to read (more on school as well) and she is almost finished with her 3rd year of dance! I cannot WAIT to take pictures of her in her sweet little costume this year. It is absolutely PERFECT for her!
As far as homeschooling goes, we are trucking on. This year has been an adjustment period to say the least. We've had some definite up times and some not so great times, but we're learning, and that's what matters most. I am currently researching and trying to decide where to go with curriculum for the first grade, but at the same time, still trying to figure out her style and what stimulates her most. Overall though, it's been a great year. We are still working hard on the learning to read part, but she is excelling beyond my expectations in math, so I believe she'll be a lot like her daddy in that area.
And the update I'm sure you're all dying to hear... no baby yet.
I'm due in 2 weeks and I'm starting to feel it. I've overall had a great pregnancy, not too many complaints. The last few days though, I've finally caught up with myself and I'm TIRED. If my house didn't need to be cleaned and things didn't need to be done, I'd lay around and watch tv with the kids all day. Alas, that is not the case. There is laundry to be folded, and dishes to be cleaned, and school work to be done. All in the name of being a mommy huh? :) I wouldn't trade it for the world.
We are super excited to meet our sweet little one, and cannot WAIT to see what God has in store for our family in the next few weeks. As for now, I'm enjoying every little kick, roll, and punch knowing this could be our last (though we're not sure on that) and trying to ignore the end of pregnancy fatigue.
Other than that, we've got a lot going on at church, gearing up for a super exciting VBS soon, and a lot of other fun stuff we're working on in children's church. If you haven't checked out the website for our ministry, you should do that. www.godsquadcm.com
Anyhow, so now that I've officially written a book, if you don't hear from me for a while, send me a message on FB or email me and yell at me for not blogging, I really need to get better about it, especially with having a new life to chronicle as well as the other two growing so quickly. And I promise to post as soon as I can when the babe is born, with pictures of course.
Monday, January 3, 2011
New Additions
We are so excited that we have two new additions to the family recently. Jared and Noel got married the week before Christmas, which means the kids also have a new cousin!
Congrats to Jared, Noel, and Isabella, we love you guys!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Birthday Fun
Tomorrow is Isaac's 3rd birthday! We were so excited to get to celebrate with their family today! Here are just a few "highlights" that I felt were worth sharing.
Molly LOVED Kyley today. All she wanted was for her to hold her. It was hilarious, and cute all the same!
Elijah loved the goody bags.
And ALL five kids sat still at one time. Can you believe it?
*and I still did not post a technically correct photo today, I've been having to shoot with my flash the only time I've had the camera out and they aren't turning out as well as I'd like*
Molly LOVED Kyley today. All she wanted was for her to hold her. It was hilarious, and cute all the same!
Elijah loved the goody bags.
And ALL five kids sat still at one time. Can you believe it?
*and I still did not post a technically correct photo today, I've been having to shoot with my flash the only time I've had the camera out and they aren't turning out as well as I'd like*
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Happy New Year!!!
So, as much as I've wanted to be good about this blogging thing... I haven't.
But I'm hoping that a new year and new ideas will get me back into the creative swing of things!
One thing I am going to strive for this year is to take at least one picture a day and post it to my blog. I can't promise I'll make it, but I can promise I'm going to try! Today's picture is definitely not going to be technically correct, but my goal with this in future pictures is to improve my skills in all areas of my photography. I really want to work hard and push what I already know to the limits and be even better as the year goes on and I hope that this will help me in that area.
So... out with the old and in with the new. Here's a sweet picture of my babies today. I just love them.
But I'm hoping that a new year and new ideas will get me back into the creative swing of things!
One thing I am going to strive for this year is to take at least one picture a day and post it to my blog. I can't promise I'll make it, but I can promise I'm going to try! Today's picture is definitely not going to be technically correct, but my goal with this in future pictures is to improve my skills in all areas of my photography. I really want to work hard and push what I already know to the limits and be even better as the year goes on and I hope that this will help me in that area.
So... out with the old and in with the new. Here's a sweet picture of my babies today. I just love them.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Kyley's "big girl" room!
So, with the help of a lot of people contributing to this, Kyley's room is now a 'big girl' room :)
She is absolutely in LOVE with it. Happy Birthday sweet girl!
She is absolutely in LOVE with it. Happy Birthday sweet girl!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Happy 6th Birthday Kyley Grace!
I love you more than you could ever know! You are one special little girl!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Homemade Christmas Ornaments
(I want to point out that our ornaments are NOT finished yet, we are still in the drying process, but I'll post more pictures when they are complete!)
My kids are all about the crafts.
Ok KYLEY is all about the crafts. So we made some ornaments. Here is the recipe we used:
Craft Supplies:
Cinnamon
Apple Sauce
Craft Glue
Cookie Cutters (cut by hand if you like)
Ribbon
Toothpick
Craft Project Instructions:
Mix equal amounts of apple sauce and cinnamon and add 1 teaspoon of craft glue for every cup of applesauce.
Mix all the ingredients until you have a firm but wet dough. If you like you can substitute small amounts of cinnamon for a little nutmeg or ground cloves.
Roll out your dough to at least 1/4 inch thickness (less than this will make your ornaments a little weak and they break easily) and cut shapes with cookie cutters.
With a toothpick, poke a hole at the top of each ornament that is large enough for a ribbon to be pulled through. Place ornaments on a cooling rack or tray to dry completely. Depending on how large your ornaments are, drying could take a couple of days; it's best not to touch your ornaments during this time.
Once your ornaments are dry and if there are a few rough edges, you can easily remove the roughness with a little fine sandpaper. Sand your ornaments gently, as it doesn't take much to remove the little edges.
Tie a ribbon through the hole and, if you like, you can paint these ornaments or add a little glitter. Be sure not to cover the entire ornament with paint or the wonderful scent will be lost.
oh and Elijah thinks they're cookies... and he wants this one.
My kids are all about the crafts.
Ok KYLEY is all about the crafts. So we made some ornaments. Here is the recipe we used:
Craft Supplies:
Cinnamon
Apple Sauce
Craft Glue
Cookie Cutters (cut by hand if you like)
Ribbon
Toothpick
Craft Project Instructions:
Mix equal amounts of apple sauce and cinnamon and add 1 teaspoon of craft glue for every cup of applesauce.
Mix all the ingredients until you have a firm but wet dough. If you like you can substitute small amounts of cinnamon for a little nutmeg or ground cloves.
Roll out your dough to at least 1/4 inch thickness (less than this will make your ornaments a little weak and they break easily) and cut shapes with cookie cutters.
With a toothpick, poke a hole at the top of each ornament that is large enough for a ribbon to be pulled through. Place ornaments on a cooling rack or tray to dry completely. Depending on how large your ornaments are, drying could take a couple of days; it's best not to touch your ornaments during this time.
Once your ornaments are dry and if there are a few rough edges, you can easily remove the roughness with a little fine sandpaper. Sand your ornaments gently, as it doesn't take much to remove the little edges.
Tie a ribbon through the hole and, if you like, you can paint these ornaments or add a little glitter. Be sure not to cover the entire ornament with paint or the wonderful scent will be lost.
oh and Elijah thinks they're cookies... and he wants this one.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Rockin around the Christmas Cards
Ok, so I am SERIOUSLY the worst Christmas Card sender in the WORLD! I have always had good intentions of buying cards and sending them out, but I somehow always seem to run out of time!
ENTER THE BEAUTIFUL WORLD OF ONLINE ORDERING AND PHOTO CHRISTMAS CARDS...
I've been browsing the Christmas Cards at Shutterfly, trying to pick just the perfect card, for the perfect picture for our card this year.
AND I STILL CAN'T DECIDE!
They have so many awesome cards to choose from, that I can't make a solid decision.
Do I go with a traditional, simple card? With just a single family portrait?
Or how about something with more pictures, where I can share my faith as well?
Or, maybe even something fun and whimsical with fun pictures of the kids
I just don't know! I even like this for whimsical and different!
or how about another simple one?
I don't know. What would you choose? They have TONS of Christmas Photo Cards to choose from!
Or if you choose to go with something more "holiday" rather than "Christmas" to meet all of your needs they have PLENTY TO CHOOSE FROM HERE AS WELL!
They even have INVITES for your favorite holiday party.
AND I still don't know what I want to order!
Thankfully, Shutterfly has made it easy for bloggers like me to jump into the Christmas Card giving this year!
I just joined in on this FUN PROMOTION and I'm going to get 50 free Christmas Cards delivered right to me! I can't wait to get my order and ship them out to our family this year!
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